I made this sign, months ago, to hang over my daughter’s play kitchen in our breakfast nook. While the sign itself is darling, and was crafted to match her mini-kitchen with the dusty pink lettering and the word ‘now’ purposefully highlighted in gold letters – The words were meant for me. She already knows how to enjoy the now. It’s me who needs the reminder. I see it everyday, on purpose, whether or not she is playing there, underneath the words.
I had no idea, the prophetic meaning behind them, or the heart-wrenching tragedy that would ultimately make the words pop off the canvas.
In all transparency, our family had a rough week. There was a tragic accident, and we experienced the devastating loss of our tiny 2 year old cousin, Kendall. I cannot remember the last time I wept so deeply. I have grieved before. But the death of a child is gut-wrenching. Precious Kendall drowned in her pool. The full story, as well as a ‘Gofundme’ site, set up to help her parents pay for medical bills and her funeral, can be found on my Twitter link, at the top of my page.
The last post I did before she passed away, was ‘How to be a good friend.’ I asked myself, what could I do? What would I want? The answer came as quickly as I asked – Pray. I prayed long. I prayed hard, bitter prayers. I prayed whispering, continuous prayers. I prayed, pleading, begging, sobbing prayers. As if she were mine. I felt she was, as I was praying. I heard myself making deals with God, as if she were mine, often forgetting she wasn’t. She was all of ours – The family’s. That’s how it is. How it should be.
God had something else in mind, as she slipped away. And I will never, ever look at that innocent sign the same again. Enjoy every moment with your loved ones. Enjoy the NOW.
Rest in peace, little Kendall Jane.
“For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things seen, nor things unseen, nor height, nor depth, nor anything, shall ever be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” ~Romans 8:38